My Head is a Maze

I am human. I am a being capable of speech, love, and complex thought. With that distinction comes a sense of responsibility and need to create, write down, and hold forever onto these complex thoughts of mine. I fall into daydreams of the questions, trying constantly to answer them in a way that my mind can comprehend. Somtimes I get angry at how little I really know, how primatively driven I really am. I look around at other humans and I read about their mundane lives and I wonder if they too share the same thoughts that I do, but cannot broadcast these thoughts out into the world.

I wonder if humans will be remembered, and if so, how? Will we be remembered as the war mongering civilisation of advanced monkeys? or we be remembered as the loving caring intelligent creatures that we are capable of being. Unfortunately, my fear as that history has already marked us as the former. Our manipulation of our environment will assuradly be remembered, and the advent of our complex technological advcancement will, too, be remembered, but our books and our journals most thouroughly describe our wars and the evils that we humans will grow famous for.

Some wonder sometimes why I am such a pascifist. Why is it that someone could have such little hope for the world ad the people that control it? Because as of now, humans have done little but gone from war to war, killing. We still have religion, the greatest cause of consentual hate. We still have the destrution, the bigotry and the idiotic resistence to change as yesteryear. Because no matter how far along we have gotten, humans are just as stupid as our primitive counterparts 3000 years ago, now we just have computers. I really do want to be proven wrong. I want to blieve that a religious fanatic doesn't really beleve in the impossbile. I really want to believe that killing can be ended. I really want humans to prove that sanity is possible en masse, unfortunately the only indicator I see that group mentality is ever used is in our own democratic system, and that elected Bush.